I sit here on a Thursday night, and I'm restless. I know I could sleep if I wanted to, but I feel unsettled. There is something I want, but I cant put my finger on what it is.
Like I should be doing something, or another thing.
My dance class was canceled tonight, so I relaxed, I watched repeats of Gray's and Private Practice, I fucked around on facebook for a bit, I did some online searches of silly, unimportant things, I listened to music, I took my pooch out, but I feel like there is more I have to do.
I'm sure I am just apprehensive about an upcoming test I am supposed to have on Saturday, and deep down I'm sure I will be just fine.
I'm not restless in a bad way, I'm looking forward to the future, I can't explain it. I feel like Christmas is a few days away, and the biggest present under the tree is mine, and its all wrapped up, and I'm itching to rip into it.
Work is going well, things are pretty fair in general (knock on wood). Maybe its the sense of spring in the air. It has always been my favorite time of year, the thunderstorms, the warming weather, the sound of birds chirping in the morning. Some of my favorite things.
I've always been thankful for spring. It always makes me smile to see newly budding flowers, to see the little green tips sprouting on the tips of tree limbs.
I almost feel like I am going somewhere, like there is a big trip I am about to take, where everything will be new, and exciting and interesting. I just cant ignore this feeling.
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